Who Will Remember
by Debbie James
Who will remember?
How we played cowboys and Indians
You always had to be Roy Rogers
Sometimes I got to be Dale Evans.
Who will remind me?
That mom liked you better
You made friends so easy
And you got to drive first.
The time you fell off the wagon
Or the time mom chased you with a stick
When we rode the teacups at the carnival
And you said you lost your stomach.
Who will remember?
We taught each other to dance
Using all Mom’s baby powder
So we could slide and make the fancy moves.
The time you had your first beer
And you got so stinking sick
Mom wouldn’t believe it
But Daddy said that’s what you get.
Who will make me double over?
About the how big that chicken was;
Introduce me to that new TV show
Or infuriate me just because.
But I don’t have to be reminded to cry
About the things only I remember
Not a day goes by
I don’t miss our memories together.
by Debbi James
Please excuse my half-hearted smile
You see I haven’t used it in a while
The what ifs, the whys
Keep me up most nights
The pain, the tears I try to hide.
But here it’s safe to show that side
Sharing the ache that won’t go away
And the treasures that I lost that day
I think I’ve even forgotten how to pray
Its summertime, yet the sky’s so gray.
But here in this room, it’s ok for me to say
That I don’t think I’ll make it through another night
Then again, I’m afraid that I just might.
You hugged me really close
As I told my story with a shaky voice.
So in sharing your strength and insight
I have learned I can hold another’s hand
With comfort and compassion.
That I have two ears to listen.
I didn’t ask for you; dear friends
Yet you are a blessed Gift in this foreign land.
This trip called grief can take a while
Trudging the rugged terrain
We are companions who share an ache.
However, more than heartbreak,
We share our lives, hopes, and tears
Books and tips and fears.
I’m thankful for the stories I hear
Knowing that when it’s my turn to speak I will be heard
I can find peace sitting with you for just a while
Always welcome despite my half-hearted smile.